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So, I overhauled the hell out of my site, and for now this post is basically BETA only because of how I structured this whole thing. Which isn’t a big issue to me. Anyways, I wanted an excuse to make a blog post and I thought, hey - why not make an update report? It’s been a long time and I’ve been kinda slowing down… so what’s up with that?

Hiatus?

Haha, no. Well, not from streaming. Life’s just busy, and streaming will pretty likely start again normally from next week. I was questioning whether I was burning out or not, but I think that going through EXTRALIFE taught me that, it’s mostly just a matter of which games I decide to pick. Roguelikes and games of that sort? They work real well. But everything else? Well, it tends to sorta wear me down — it’s good, but it doesn’t quite take over my mind like roguelikes do.

Of course I’m definitely finishing OFF as soon as I come back, for sure. We’re too close to the end, next stream might basically be the last one. Then there’s corru.observer which I am tackling at a relatively slow pace… I try to save it for when my friend who’s REALLY into it to join along since they’re interested, and taking a break helps keep the interest alive. So don’t think I’m done with that either. Hell, I did it in EXTRALIFE and just found out it has a roguelike thing apparently. Ok.

RGG…?

Okay so. Like A Pirate Yakuza. It’s a good game. But boy howdy am I losing connection with it. Every Yakuza game that I love has contrast - some gravitas. The combat feels real nice to play with, and I do like parts of the game itself, but I do also feel like it loses depth pretty quickly. The side stories are… bleh, with only a handful good ones - the upgrade path starts out exciting and quickly becomes mundane — and this especially goes for the ship combat - and the main story is just… whatever. I don’t have intrigue, or excitement, or any ounce of interest in seeing where it goes. It’s just Majima fucking around which, while I do enjoy, I don’t enjoy it quite enough to play it to the end. I want a bit of drama in my Yakuza.

Then comes the whole scandal. I will not be playing Kiwami 3 for one reason and one reason only. Kagawa. I don’t care how minor this seems, I don’t exactly want to play a game with someone who did sexual assault which was never punished. It just taints the whole thing. I know that the original voice actor is also a creep — but I only know that now, and it seems like that was revealed after the game came out? I’m not 100% on all that.

Anyways. No Kiwami 3 until they rectify that. Their handling of the whole thing has been shit as well.

Videos…?

Ah videos. Yeah I burnt out on editing. Even editing shorts is hard to start — it’s not like the process itself is exhausting, but I just. Cannot edit. I can try to force myself, but that ends up making it even harder to work on the next video. There’s the motivation problem - in that there’s an amount of work and passion poured into it, only for barely anyone watching it. As much as it feels rewarding to make videos, at some point it just kinda… falls apart.

To compensate, I’m trying to get myself to make shorts at least. The effort to engagement ratio is all fucked there, but in the opposite direction. So y’know. But, then I can grab the footage I edited, and turn the whole thing into a video. Or at least that’s the idea. Let’s see if I do that — it’s already been a while since I even made a short.

Anything Else?

Working on personal projects and other stuff also kinda stole my attention away from streaming and recording, though really it’s mostly just a motivation thing. I think I’m recovering on the stream end, but on the editing end… eh we’ll see.

Oh, and Umineko. Oh boy. That’s. I have no idea how that is going to go. Genuinely no idea.

Oh, and Limbus Company. Yeah I burnt out. Turns out the Gacha elements just really causes some immense friction with me. I just can’t really get into it. I can try, but especially now that I feel like I’ve exhausted what I can do with the Mirror Dungeon, I dunno. The fun is only in the plot, and that needs me to grind. So, there’s the problem.

Oh, and

…nah that’s it.

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